People Power

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

I was talking with a friend today, and I realized that for the longest time, my confidence was a wreck, deliberately masked in layers of sarcasm or indifference. Someone once said that when I step outside my door, I put on a persona that is wholly different from the one when I’m with her. I found it intriguing at the time, but I didn’t realize how close to the truth it was. Generally, my emotions could be easily manipulated if you were smart enough, beautiful enough, or strong enough. I would compromise my own values to appease yours, and I had a rather cynical view of the outside world.

There is no revelation like realizing my value as a human being had been entwined with the opinions of those around me.

And I came to realize, at long last, that it wasn’t doing me any favours. People can see through personas, or they can at least feel something is amiss. I told my friend that I would endeavour to be less affected by other peoples’ perceptions of me, and work more on redefining a core frame that shapes my outward view of reality. After all, no one is better at being you than you, so why settle for being a mediocre you, tossed about by the expectations and views of others?

These few weeks have sometimes been learning experiences that leave me speechless. I find myself in the mirror, faced with uncomfortable facts about myself and the way I view people. But I do not deny it, nor do I make an excuse for being that way. It is unacceptable to me and my values, and that is reason enough for me to embrace it and change, regardless of political correctness or the social lies we tell ourselves.

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Finally

Thursday, February 5, 2009

My mom called me today while I was out eating. She told me we finally got our Permanent Residency. I had to sit down, I was like a bloody little girl. After my conversation with her, I turned to two hotties next to me and said:

“God, I love Australia.”

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Sunday, February 1, 2009

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State of Mind

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

There is something satisfying about going out and talking to people. Just being able to freely talk with no awkwardness. When you’re in the lift and speaking to the old lady who is having lunch on a burning summer’s day. Bitching about the mercurial weather to a fellow pedestrian. When you hear your favourite music in your head as you catch the eye of a girl or five. Snap along with the street musician and he gives you the biggest toothy grin you’ve ever seen. Flip him a golden coin for his jazzy tunes. Thumbs up to the newspaper guy as you tell him you’re a big fan. Yakking with a buddy for two hours non-stop and back-to-back. A state of mind, smooth as honey, light as a feather, free as the sky.

This is who I am, this is what I do. Welcome to my world.

… to bring you an important update! As acting head of Public Relations for the Legion Group, it has been voted that I will be taking over the role of Speaker of the Legion, replacing Mr. L. Most of your stories will now come from a little more social perspective, and a little less introspective. After all, what use are actions and thoughts if not in relation to others? Let’s not forget to thank Mr. L for his long years of service and wish him a happy retirement, he certainly has deserved it!

That’s all for now, folks! Tune in next time on Radio Legion, same time, same place.

Bella

Sunday, January 18, 2009

After an eventful birthday party at Friday’s Riverside, I was waiting outside for my friends when a hottie of a Latino chick walked up to me (again with the Latinos, I know!). She asked if I was waiting for someone, and I said yes. We started bitching about waiting for the opposite gender because we were idiots or care too much or whatever. She asked me if I wanted to make out with her. Direct girl knows what she wants. Said she was hot, but no thanks. Good choice, as her beefcake of a guy friend showed up a couple seconds later, cheeseburger in mouth.

I think these encounters mean that the next Miss Universe is going to be Latino. Watch this space.

Here’s Looking At You

Monday, January 12, 2009

Eyes. Today, while doing the groceries, I ran into a girl whose gaze had such an intensity it made my heart skip a beat. I was checking out some fruits and looked up from my aisle; she was doing the same thing and looked up into my eyes. I didn’t know whether to turn away or keep staring. It was for only a few moments, but those eyes felt like they could’ve burnt a hole at the back of my skull. Sort of the kind of consideration a predator regards its prey with. I suppose it didn’t help she was a smoking hot Latino. Fortunately, I managed to compose myself and smiled at her before turning away. She did the same.

Glorious Morning

Saturday, January 10, 2009

5.30am and sunlight was streaming through my windows. I tossed and turned and wanted to get more sleep until someone called me at 8am. Got up, stretched my achey muscles, smiled. I figured life was not too bad right now. I could keep doing this.

IT’S A BEAUTIFUL SUMMER DAY DON’T LET IT GET AWAYYYY

Pump it up!

Friday, January 2, 2009

Made a list
Checking it twice
This year I’m going to be naughty and nice 🙂

Foodie <3

Sunday, December 7, 2008

There is something vaguely satisfying about having a big talk after you’ve eaten till you are full. It makes me agreeable, affable, optimistic and happy. 🙂